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Showing People Who Can

Before I started chemo, but geared up to Fight Like a Girl!
Funny to see myself with eyebrows and eyelashes.
(Photo cred. Neely Jacobson Photography)

Since everyone who reads this blog has not been with me since the beginning of this Cancer journey I feel it is important to recap the logistics of my diagnosis, so the news I have to report is all the more amazing. In November 2012 I had a surgery to remove a mass on my right ovary. During the surgery the doctor found the mass to be a lot more involved then anticipated, and when I awoke from a surgery that was intended only to remove a portion of my ovary I learned my Fallopian tubes, right ovary and 3/4 of my left ovary had been taken due to what the doctor had discovered was not just a mass but a Cancerous tumor. We were not given much time to process the information before our first meeting with my Oncologist on 11/30/2012. Even though our world came crashing a down a little  that day after being told “you can die from this” and given an explanation regarding the serious threat Ovarian Cancer poses to many vital organs, our faith told us everything was going to be alright despite many things that seemed very wrong. 

I was immediately scheduled for a surgery on 12/10/12, and afterwards we were informed how advanced the Cancer had become. During the procedure I had a complete hysterectomy as it was determined Cancer had spread from right ovary and “splattered” all over my uterus, remaining ovary, and surrounding area. In addition the Cancer had metastasized and formed into a significant sized mass near my bowels, and  Cancer cells were found floating in stomach fluid pulled during the surgery. As a result of the destructive metastization, I was diagnosed with Stage IV Ovarian Cancer, the highest on the widely accepted Cancer staging scale and therefore most despairing classification of one’s Cancer.

While I was in the hospital recovering from a very invasive and extensive surgery a question was posed to me on the “Teal for Tarah” Facebook page set up by our church.  The question came from the mother of a child in my parent’s church. As children do, she asked questions without a filter, which I am always happy to oblige no matter the age of the inquirer. Bottom line, she wanted to know why God had allowed me to get sick. I remember pondering over a response as I laid awake in my hospital bed dependent on others to assist me with basic human functioning and inconvenienced by many lines and tubes extended out from my body. Even after eighteen difficult rounds of chemo, the sacrifice of my ability to ever have biological children, and the trauma and difficulty induced by battling a life threatening disease I still believe the words in my response from that night. From my hospital bed I wrote “Tell her God did not make me sick, but will make me well again someday. Make sure she knows Cancer is not from God, but sometimes when Cancer appears God finds ways to use it. He uses it to draw the sick closer to Him, uses it to make people stronger for Him, and uses it show others how real He is”. 

The battle has tested my faith and will to fight, and despite maintaining a close relationship with God it had me question IF He could or would heal me.  Prayer, letters, God’s word, and personal words of encouragement have helped me maintain the faith. While writing this blog entry I am reminded of a letter alerting me to the faith held by many who don’t know me, but still believe in Jesus’s ability to heal me. A friend of my husband told me she had felt led to share my story with her congregation in Owasso, OK. Reportedly after sharing the story an elder of the church came to the pulpit and prayed for my healing with “boldness”. In addition he shared the Bible story found in Mark where the father of a demon possessed boy asked Jesus, “IF you can heal my son?”. Jesus replied, ” IF I CAN?” and then the man asked Jesus to help him with his unbelief. 

Although this is not the end of my Cancer journey, and may not mean complete healing I received a letter in the mail affirming this Bible story shared on my behalf. My tumor indicators are done to a “1” a number which was at “140” even after the surgery which removed growing Cancer tumors. A 1-35 is in the normal category. A 1, for now, means healing, it means Jesus CAN, it means with the help of a heavenly father and many who have supported me I kept up the good fight, and showed Ovarian Cancer what it means to FIGHT LIKE A GIRL!

15 Comments
  • Glynna

    June 18, 2013 at 10:59 pm Reply

    I am so thankful that we serve an AWESOME God, who hears our prayers and heals our wounds. He is not done with you, yet, Tarah Warren!! He has "WORK" for you to do!! You are such a wonderful example of His love, healing and grace!! Thank you for being so bold and candid!!

  • Cheryl

    June 19, 2013 at 1:33 am Reply

    Tarah, I am overwhelmed with gratitude to our Wonderful Saviour!! Yes indeed we serve a mighty God!!!What wonderful news!!! xoxo <3 Cheryl

  • Rick

    June 19, 2013 at 1:46 am Reply

    You're wondering what you're going to say when you visit Brookings? I'd say you have a very solid foundation there. I read every word and enjoyed it. I love you.

    • Tarah Warren

      June 19, 2013 at 2:58 am Reply

      Its a start, but still have never spoken in THREE services. You speak in three services every weekend like "It aint no thang"

    • Rick

      June 19, 2013 at 4:26 pm Reply

      It ain't no thang.

  • Moonbeambaby

    June 19, 2013 at 4:28 am Reply

    Yeah Tarah!! So thankful to our Heavenly Father for your witness and about your positive news. As for what you should say in the 3 services, as a former speech comm professor my best advice is to speak from the heart. The people who have prayed for you in Brookings simply want to hear you speak the Truth as it applies to your life and your situation. You go girl! I know you'll be fantastic at all 3 services.

    • Rick

      June 19, 2013 at 4:27 pm Reply

      Good advice.

    • Tarah Warren

      June 20, 2013 at 8:12 pm Reply

      Thanks Marica. I appreciate that advice. I always want to speak from the heart and be real. Now to just narrow down what God wants me to share from my heart

  • Moonbeambaby

    June 19, 2013 at 4:29 am Reply

    Just so you know, the previous post is from Marcia Feisal

  • Andi

    June 20, 2013 at 2:53 am Reply

    This touched me in more ways than one. Condisdering the obstacles that have entered life your words are leading me to believe in healing. I pray for you often and have been wearing my teal ovarian cancer hairband bracelet that Ben got for us the day I came up there. I am so amazed by God and the amazing blessings and miracles that He bestows upon us. I love you!
    Andi Haddad

  • Brenda Salladay

    June 20, 2013 at 1:24 pm Reply

    It was so nice meeting you yesterday at OU Cancer center. Thank-you so much for the gift bags that you were handing out!! My husband was so touched!!! I am going to read you blogs and was looking for a place to be a follower but did not find one!

    • Tarah Warren

      June 20, 2013 at 8:14 pm Reply

      It was so nice meeting you and I look forward to reading your blog and book someday. I wish I was better at this blog stuff and knew how to set up a place for people to follow, but I guess I will just have to go with the people who stumble upon it and those God opens up the opportunity for me to meet. Wishing you and your husband all the best in your fight!

    • Brenda Salladay

      June 21, 2013 at 2:42 pm Reply

      Thanks Tarah, praying for you and your family!!! I am going to subscribe by email!!

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